Yesterday I obsessed over something I said that was really stupid. I just couldn’t stop thinking about it and then every time I did think about it, a huge pang of guilt and embarrassment washed over me. I think this obsessive thinking is an old remnant from having social anxiety. Growing up [...]
Posts under ‘Thinking’
Snowed In (My Mind?)
I anticipated being stuck in the house from the blizzard. I enjoy that sometimes, being isolated from the world for days at a time. It’s the hermit in me.
Here is a picture of what the deck looked like tonight. To the right is a lounge chair piled with snow.
It’s been the surreal [...]
I Have a New Job, and Other Stuff
So the past few weeks have been chock full of activity. I was offered a part-time position that barely pays any better than my current contract job, but offers benefits and more chances for growth. At the very least it will tide me over until I find something better.
I found out [...]
I Don’t Want to Struggle, I Just Want to Flow
Right now, life is offering me some “opportunities”, some areas of resistance.
No, I’m not going to go boo-hooing again about my relationship and job issues.
I will say that I’m tired of The Resistance though, so I’m telling myself that it’s OK to let go of it. This form of Worry. It [...]
Life is a Fricken Nuisance, That’s What Motivates Me
Life is a pain in the ass. This is why I’m always on this quest for spiritual growth and enlightenment.
I’m not in any particularly bad mood right now, just discontent. It seems I feel that way a lot lately.
I constantly don’t have something that I want. Right now…actually, for [...]
The Perpetual Intentional Choosing
FINDING THE MOST DIRECT MEANS TO INNER PEACE AND LIBERATION
Looking back at the progress of my life, from being desperately empty, lost and almost always depressed to now knowing peace more easily and quickly at almost any given moment, it seems likely that “enlightenment” could occur within this lifetime. Maybe?
I am [...]
Blogging Identity Crisis: Part 2 (Or how I learned not to give a shit.)
Oh yeah. I said I would have a part two to my blogging identity crisis, didn’t I?
Actually, there is no “crisis”.
Things have changed since I wrote that last post three weeks ago. When you choose to make inner peace your first priority, being successful at anything else does [...]
Thinking about Gratitude and Appreciation
Gratitude or appreciation is often used as a law of attraction technique in order to manifest more of what we desire in life. But I believe there is a catch to this.
When expressing appreciation in order to manifest something, the appreciation should not be expressed with anxious excitement. Instead, appreciation should be accompanied [...]
Realizing
I’m realizing that life is a reflection of what I choose to feel inside.
Life is a palette. It is up to me to choose the colors.
So as I sit here with worries floating, barely above the conscious of my mind, pulling me down into the mundane, I remember that life can be more fun.
I [...]
The Ultimate Form of Love and Connection with God
I believe one of the ultimate forms of love and connection with God is knowing that you are loved unconditionally by another human being and being completely open to that love. This is because we are all segments of God and our purpose here on Earth is to learn how to see God in [...]
